Doorway One
EMOTIONAL RELEASE
What if you could feel lighter than what you’ve lived through?
PEACE · PRESENCE · JOY
Welcome to this Now
Take a slow, deep breath. Let your shoulders soften and come down from wherever they've been living. You are met here….exactly as you are.
This moment isn’t asking for another version of you.
Whatever is moving, whatever is tender, whatever is unfinished… it’s allowed to be here.
And so are you.
Not the more healed you. Not the more certain you. Not the someday-when-I-finally-have-my-shit-together you. Just YOU — here and now.
Maybe you’ve been carrying the weight of survival for so long—holding it together, keeping the peace, being what was needed—that you became very good at functioning while quietly leaving yourself behind.
For this moment… just notice. Your breath. Your body. Whatever is here. And instead of leaving yourself to fix, manage, or control any of it… what if you stayed?
Not waiting for the waters to settle. Not waiting to become someone else. Simply meeting yourself in this now moment.
Because underneath everything that may be moving, everything you’ve carried, everything you’ve learned to do to survive, belong, be loved, and keep the peace…you’re still here.
This is where remembrance begins. Not somewhere out ahead of you or on the other side of more inner work and healing.
Here. Now.
What if you don’t need to become her?
What if this now is inviting you to…
Oh, hello....There you are.
Maybe you’ve been the strong one for so long that strength stopped feeling like a choice. Maybe you came to believe that you weren’t enough, yet somehow too much at the same time.
Too emotional. Too sensitive. Too dramatic. Too needy. Too opinionated. Too something.
So you learned to PLEASE. To shrink a little….dim your shine….swallow your truth….keep the peace.
You learned to make room for everyone but yourself. Maybe you became so good at doing for everyone else—being what and who they needed—that somewhere along the way, simply being you became uncomfortable.
And maybe those ways of BEing served and protected you. Helped you survive things you didn’t yet have another way to survive. They were ways of feeling safe.
Ways of being loved. Ways of belonging. Ways of feeling okay.
Until, without even realizing it, leaving yourself became comfortable. And somewhere along the way, fix–manage–control became a way of BEing just to feel okay and safe.
Again. And again. And again.
Until something in you begins to stir.
A different question.
Not:
What’s wrong with me?
But…
WHAT IF NOTHING IS WRONG WITH ME?
And maybe an even more interesting question…Who am I underneath all this surviving?
SACRED REMEMBRANCE
What if the answer has been quietly alive underneath all the surviving… waiting to be remembered?
Because buried underneath everything you learned to be… there is something that was never lost....Your aliveness. Your truth. Your voice. Your knowing. Your agency. Your playfulness. Your capacity to feel. Your capacity for joy….YOU!
This is what I call:
SACRED REMEMBRANCE.
Not becoming someone new.
Not going back to who you used to be.
Not fixing the woman standing here now.
But remembering you were never lost or broken. Just buried.
The Journey
I REMEMBER HER
There isn’t a straight line back to yourself. Which is probably a good thing, because I don’t have another five-step plan for you. This is more like a rhythm. A remembering. A movement your body already knows.
SOFTEN
Maybe you don’t have to grip quite so tightly.
FEEL
Let your body tell the truth your mind has been trying to organize.
RELEASE
Let go of what was never yours to carry.
RECALIBRATE
Notice what becomes possible when survival is no longer running the show.
REMEMBER
You were here all along.
RECLAIM
Take up your space. Trust your knowing. Use your voice. Choose yourself.
REJOICE
Not because everything is perfect. Because you’re here for your own aliveness again.
And maybe being here for your aliveness changes what freedom means.
Maybe freedom isn’t finally getting everything under control.
Maybe it’s discovering….you don’t have to.
FIX.
MANAGE.
CONTROL.
And begin making room for:
PEACE.
PRESENCE.
JOY.
That question lives at the heart of everything I create.
Yay! Welcome to…
JENERGYVIBES.
J is for Joyful. Energy is the language underneath the words. And vibes? That’s the unmistakable energy of a woman who is finally choosing herself. Yeah. That’s my territory. I’m Jen. And JENERGYVIBES is the world I’ve created for women to experience what becomes possible when they stop abandoning themselves in the middle of what they feel.
Not by controlling the waves. By learning they can move with them. Because life moves. Emotion moves. Energy moves. And we were made to move, too. This is where we breathe. We feel. We move. We release. We listen. We make sound. We get quiet enough to hear what’s underneath all the noise.
Sometimes energy moves in ways neither of us could have planned. Sometimes we turn your story into a song. And sometimes… we laugh. Because sacred doesn’t have to mean serious all the dang time. And joy? Joy is medicine for the Journey.
Sacred Joy
Your Aliveness.
Medicine for Your Journey
And underneath all this remembering… there is joy.
Not the kind that asks you to smile when you want to scream or paste a positive affirmation over grief. Not the kind that requires you to fix your mood, raise your vibration, or wait until life finally settles down. I’m talking about something much more sacred than that....
The kind that lets laughter exist beside tears. Pleasure beside pain. Playfulness in the middle of uncertainty. Because joy doesn’t require calm seas. It doesn’t ask you to stop being human. It meets you there.
Somewhere along the way, many of us learned to treat joy like a reward waiting on the other side of healing. When I finally feel better. When I’ve worked through this. When I’ve healed enough. Then maybe I’ll give myself permission to laugh again. To play. To feel joy.
But joy was never meant to be the prize you receive for healing well enough. There is no level of healing you have to attain before you’re allowed to feel alive.
What if joy was never waiting for you in the ‘end zone’? What if joy could be your companion on your journey back home to you?
Medicine for the days when the water gets rough. A reminder that even while you are feeling, releasing, grieving, healing, and remembering… you are still alive.
This is what J·O·Y means to me:
Journey Of You.
Joy is in the journey and the journey is within you.Your journey. Your choice.
And joy gets to come with you.
You get to experience it in the middle of your beautifully messy, moving, feeling, very-much-alive life.
This is what’s possible when we stop putting joy off and allow ourselves to embody it now.
Not a life without waves. A life we are fully here for. And somewhere in being fully here… we begin to know:
PEACE
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PRESENCE
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JOY
The Body of Work
This is the heart of Somatic Emotional Alchemy.
Joy doesn’t require calm seas.
SOMATIC EMOTIONAL ALCHEMY
S·E·A
I’ve spent enough of my life trying to think my way out of things my body was still carrying. Maybe you have too.
There comes a point when understanding the story isn’t the same thing as being free from what the story left behind. Because emotions aren’t just stories we tell ourselves. They move through the body.
They have sensation. Energy. Rhythm.
And sometimes what we’ve called stuck is simply something that never had the safety, space, or permission to move.
For a long time, I thought healing meant getting to a place where the waters were finally calm. Where nothing could knock me off center. Where I experience no more holding-it-all-togethering.
Ya. I made that a word!
Turns out, all that treading water is exhausting. What I've come to understand is something very different. The goal isn't to tame the ocean….
It’s developing the capacity to be with its movement without abandoning yourself. To feel without being swallowed by what you feel. To allow emotion to move without needing to fix, manage, control it—or make it mean something is wrong with you.
Not a way out of feeling but a way deeper into relationship with yourself while you feel. Because the sea was never meant to be still. And neither were you.
emotion meets body.
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body meets energy.
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energy meets expression.
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expression meets movement.
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movement creates space.
And inside that space…
something new becomes possible.
None of these are the destination. They’re ways of listening. Ways of moving. Ways of coming home.
And maybe coming home isn’t about waiting for the waters to settle. Maybe it’s learning you can be fully here while they move.
Because…
The Experiences
THERE ARE MANY WAYS HOME
CHOOSE YOUR DOORWAY
Pause for a moment.
Feel into each experience.
Notice what stirs, opens, or sparks your curiosity.
Then choose the doorway that feels right for you.
Doorway Two
THE SOUND OF ME
What if the essence of you could be heard… and felt?
Doorway Three
HER MEDITATION
What if stillness isn’t about making everything inside you still?
Doorway Four
ENERGY HEALING
What if you don’t have to understand what needs to move… to allow it to move?
Words from Women
IN HER WORDS
Every woman enters through her own doorway. What she feels, what moves, what opens, what she remembers—belongs to her. I could share what it means to me to witness women coming home to themselves. Because it means A LOT! But there’s something remarkable about hearing a woman tell you, in her own way, what it feels like for her. These are their experiences and their words.
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AMANDA M.
For years there was a painful hard “ball” where my stomach and ribs are. But no one knew its cause or how to fix it. While working with Jen, it was like I could literally feel her pull the hard ball out of my stomach. And all that was left was a pain-free, soft and empty space.
It’s been a year since our work together and that ball is still gone and I’m able to eat what I want without pain or getting sick. I don’t need all my medications or natural remedies I was relying on. I have not had any panic attacks. My anxiety is way less and old triggers are no longer triggers. That feeling of helplessness is finally gone.
I feel reborn and like I found a part of myself that I thought was gone forever. Thank you, Jen, for my newfound healing. I am free and I can finally breathe deeply for the first time in years.
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CHRISTINA R.
I thought I had to live with all the trauma I’ve endured over my life, that it was forever a piece of me limiting who I am and who I could become. I could not have been more wrong.
Jen, you were divinely placed in my life to open my eyes to certain truths so I can stop living stuck in the painful loop you always talk about.
These past few months you’ve released so much baggage from my body (even before birth). The trauma energies you cleared were trapped for years and causing instability within my body. Clearing them has left me feeling lighter, more open and grounded and feeling hope again.
My mind is blown. I thought there’s no way this is legit — I always thought energy stuff was religion and philosophy, but I was wrong. It’s science and it’s real.
I’m grateful for the changes inside of me, including a weight being lifted and seeing life through clearer lenses now that the layers of muck have been removed.
Jen, you’re a beautiful soul. Thank you for overcoming so much and sharing your gifts with me so that I can heal. I’m forever grateful.
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KATHLEEN C.
Jen…I am FOREVER grateful for your energy healing. I was already working with numerous energy modalities including being an advanced Dr Joe Dispenza student, yoga, sound healing, chanting, Reiki, Chi Gong etc.
You are Divinely gifted and led. Our work is freeing me in ways I NEVER imagined. I thought I had to just accept that trauma and PTSD would have to be managed. That chronic physical and emotional illnesses were my burdens to carry. That is a big fat lie!
Our work has propelled me forward literally by years! I wake up each morning looking forward to the day and all the beautiful souls I get share this journey with. I know peace and joy like I never did before! TY, ty, beautiful woman.
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KRISTA S.
When I met Jen my life CHANGED! I was dealing with a lot of energy blocks due to significant mental health issues.
In three sessions Jen removed over 50 energy blocks. I instantly felt lighter, more at ease. I felt like releasing all the mental health blocks put me in a better heart and head space. I felt free from the insecurities and ‘garbage’ that was holding me back.
Jen is down to earth, funny (bonus!) authentic, and her desire to heal radiates out like a bright light.
Since working with Jen, things flow more smoothly and my energy is where it needs to be. I’ve begun to trust so much more!
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SARAH K.
This woman is powerful and worth every penny. We don’t know the amount of trauma we are carrying with us and when it’s released, it’s liberating! I recommend her to EVERYONE, even to children, I’ve seen her work with children and it’s incredible!
I am a skeptical person until I see or experience proof. Most cases, I walk away disappointed because I really wanted to believe.
I went in with an open mind and open heart. Jen not only identified the blockages but the ages and then released when I was ready. No words can describe how powerful my sessions are. As she was unblocking one, I said I felt it in my hips, (I didn’t tell her it was actually in one hip) then she identified the right hip as the pain point. Then she identified other areas and each one was exactly where the trauma started.
I’ve had a couple more sessions with her and the results are just as astounding! Jen is the real deal.
My chest was where most of my blockages were. Now that she’s released them my chest is able to expand with full breaths, I don’t feel heaviness and my mind has calmed down a tremendous amount.
I am a true believer. I don’t have enough words to articulate how truly amazing she is.
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TRACI P.
Honestly, what can I say about a healing experiences that have been some of the most impactful of my life? I have worked, over the years, with a wide variety of healers and body practitioners to help me improve and maintain my health.
What Jen has offered me has risen to the top, for sure. One of the intentions that I have recently set is to work with those who not only bring a powerful and unique approach to supporting me, but also allow for an experience that is joyful and fun. Jen delivered! In fact, one of my most recent and most powerful sessions found me laughing and experiencing such joy and ease that I didn’t want it to end!
I have found not only physical improvement in my health and mental well-being, but my inner child is back, as well! I now find that I’m generally happier and can more effortlessly express my fun-loving nature. The energetic heaviness that I had been feeling is gone, and I really can attribute much of it to the work I have done with Jen. I recommend anyone who is experiencing blocks to their true, authentic nature and vitality to give themselves the gift of seeing Jen. I promise it will be one of the best investments you ever make.
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JILL W.
Jen is able to take out old emotions from your body! This is so helpful for all of us who want to make a positive impact in this world because to be effective in this world we have to clear out all the old stuff that may be holding us back.
I worked with Jen a year ago, and she took out the old fear and anxiety from my body and immediately after my first session with her I made the decision to start my own business! And here I am one year later, with a growing successful business! I am so grateful for her help.
Strongly recommend. Each session with Jen is like 20 therapy sessions! That’s how much work is done in a very short time!
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CLAUDIA W.
Jen is the real deal! She will go leaps and bounds to help someone heal. She puts her heart and soul into everything she does and sprinkles it with her magic.
She helped me release some things I wasn’t even aware were still plaguing me. As soon as she uncovered them, I knew exactly what they were. I instantly felt the weightlessness from all I was carrying. I felt her support and compassion throughout my sessions.
Jen is remarkable at putting you at ease, even during the tough moments.
Not only have I experienced Jen as a client, I also worked with her on a personal development platform. Watching her transform the lives of these people with her energy is like witnessing a work of art. Her meditations are phenomenal. It takes someone very special to be able to hold space like that. Her voice is the perfect amount of soothing and attentive. Keeping you in a state of flow.
I was also a guest on her podcast. We had so much fun and we dug into some deep conversations. It takes an exceptional person to be able to keep it light while digging deep.
I highly recommend Jen to anyone who is ready to heal, grow and transform from the inside out. You will not be disappointed. Plus she is super fun to be around. I am grateful for her.
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MEL M.
I did not realize that the cause of much of my frustrations, depression and anxiety (not to mention lack of energy) were being caused by blocked energy from many emotional issues from my past. Jen was great and helped me to release all of this giving me back a very focused demeanor! I cannot thank her enough and highly recommend her services to anyone who is feeling there is something within themselves standing in the way of their success!
Thank you Jen!
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VAL R
Amazing! One of the many words to describe Jen! She is full of life and passion! She truly cares about helping people. When my grandson was struggling, Jen helped him a lot.
My daughter said she noticed a change in him (for the better!) right away. When I’ve talked to Jen, she has been encouraging and empowering. She listens intently and gives me practical, insightful action steps to take. Her fun, magical personality shines through in everything she does. I am grateful for her! I know all who work with her will be blessed and benefit immensely!
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BRANDY A.
All I can say is wow!!!! Its absolutely incredible how wonderful I feel! My body has continued to release some things.
The first night it was like I was in a fight to remove my X that was tied to these events. I was in physical pain all night but kept telling myself to let it go.
I woke up in the morning feeling great and full of energy! Looking back at the events is like watching tv — no emotions or bad feelings. Just a faint picture of things. Hard to explain but I know you already know this. Words cannot express how grateful I am to you!!!”
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ILYSE C.
If you aren’t familiar with Jen, change this today. Something will shift for you by being in Jen’s energy. You will feel seen, heard, understood, known.
She is a healer. If you’re unfamiliar with what a healer is or unsure about healing modalities, connect with Jen. She has a gift. You have to experience her and it.
She’s created a wonderful community on and offline and has helped so many people through her postings and private work. Through humor, storytelling and being exactly who she came here to be, you’ll receive a healing and blessing that you’ll never forget. She gives others permission to be all they came here to be too. Lean in. Get to know her. You’ll understand.
Jen is a 5 STAR recommendation. She’s as good as it gets!
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DR NUPI A.
It’s like I’m brand new! Like a whole pile of rocks got shifted ... holy fk !!!! I feel lighter... that was heavy fking energy that was stuck.
I was suffering .. badly. And you saw me, felt me and held a sacred space for me. That is Priceless & timeless in its beauty and its power.
You are an angel. You truly are a gift & a blessing. I will never ever forget what you have done for me tonight.
It’s like I just woke up from a deep deep hibernation sleep... and I’ve removed a layer of... something that doesn’t serve me any more.
Mind feels razor sharp .. focused .. no confusion or fogginess ... column of white light within me.
YOU TOTALLY FKING BROUGHT MY GLITTER BACK THATS FOR SURE!
Bless you. Seriously ... you are THE DOGS BOLLOCKS!
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TAL W.
Working with Jen has been a game changer for me. I have carried some heavy emotions and energy, some of which were inherited, and she was able to help me feel lighter again. I noticed a significant difference in my ability to handle my life day to day as a result. She is a delightful human, and the sessions are worth every penny.
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DARCY V. (and Sassy!)
I truly can’t recommend Jen enough. My personal experiences with her work have felt nothing short of miraculous.
I’ve had the incredible opportunity to work with Jen personally twice -- once for me and once for my dog, Sassy -- And to this day, I’m still beyond blown away by both experiences.
I hurt my back badly. I was in so much pain, and nothing I tried was giving me relief. Jen did a session with me, and the difference was beyond remarkable. That same day, my back was feeling incredible. I was able to sit in a car for three hours and then go on a two-mile hike—and my back felt completely better and never hurt again after that.
When my dog Sassy was really sick, she was barely moving or getting up and I was incredibly worried about her. Jen offered to work with her energetically and let me know when she began the session remotely. I kid you not— Sassy had a literal 100% turnaround in real time. The change was incredible. I even sent Jen a picture afterward of Sassy smiling because she looked like herself again! She was up, feeling good, and completely fine after the session. I was absolutely amazed.
I’m still blown away by what I witnessed with Sassy and what I experienced in my own body. Jen has an incredible gift, and I’m so grateful to have experienced it firsthand.
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GEOFF W.
What can I say about the one and only Jen Russman?
Work with her. Today. Yesterday if possible. Today would be good too.
Jen helped me clear a major energy blockage that had been holding me back, giving me a fresh new perspective on moving forward. She approaches her work with equal parts sincerity and levity, making you feel light, comfortable and knowing you’re in good hands the whole time.
You feel like she’s on your team and helping lighten your load is the single most important thing in the world to her.
If you feel stuck, Jen will get you unstuck. Guaranteed. Working with Jen will be one of the best investments you’ll ever make.
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KADYN R. (age 3)
When you said it was on your heart to help my toddler, I jumped for joy because after having multiple sessions with you, I knew you could help clear him of all the trapped emotional energies caused by his medically complex issues and the trauma of living the first 500 days of his life in the NICU followed by 100+ days in rehab before coming home.
It’s so hard to repeatedly watch him have his “tummy” spells and not be able to take his pain away. So many times I’ve screamed at the universe in tears, begging for a higher power to make his pain stop.
That first day when I reached out in desperation asking you to connect to his energy, I was dumbfounded to see the instant transformation in him after you located and released multiple blocks causing his pain. I’ll never forget how he calmed immediately and fell asleep peacefully in my arms.
Since then he has blossomed into an active toddler! The very next day my medically complex and tube fed kid was eating by mouth voluntarily and wanting to be physically active and vocal! This is HUGE! He is thriving to this day!
And it was WEEKS before he had another episode, which you also resolved by connecting to him and releasing more trapped energy blocks from his gut.
As a medically trained mom and caretaker, I never knew his pain could be trapped emotional energy in his body.
Jen, I wish I could hire you to be my personal energy practitioner to follow us around all day! You have such a gift and a beautiful heart and I appreciate how you are always there for me as your client when we need support. I’m forever grateful and look forward to all our future releases for me and my kids.
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BABY E. (age 1)
I am in awe of the immediate changes I see in my “Little Man.”
As you know, I am guardian of this precious one-year-old boy who so clearly has experienced trauma before coming to me.
Prior to you working on him, he was considered failure to thrive, terrified of everyone, including his bio mom. And he was experiencing full-blown night terrors that no baby should ever go through. It was horrifying to witness.
I can’t believe the difference in him since you removed trapped emotional energy out of his body! He has not had one night terror since. He is so much happier and sleeping peacefully. He is thriving and able to connect and bond with us unlike before.
We are so grateful! Jen, you have relieved my little man of tremendous hurt and pain. It is such a blessing knowing he doesn’t have to carry that weight with him as he grows up. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.”
About Jen
SO… WHO IS THIS WOMAN?
Despite everything you’ve just read, I did not arrive on earth floating peacefully on a cloud of lavender light with a fluffy regulated nervous system.
Would’ve been epic though! (insert smirk and eye roll)
I got here the long way…. The winding, twisting, ‘c’mon, not another plot twist’ kind of way.
Hi! I’m Jen. And if we were meeting in person, I’d probably invite you to get comfy, pour yourself something de-lish, and settle in for a heart-to-heart conversation.
And knowing me, we’d quickly be swapping stories, laughing, and marveling at how we made it through the muck life has thrown at us.
Because we’re all carrying stories. Some beautiful. Some heartbreaking. Some unspeakable. And some so utterly redonkulous that you have to wonder whether the Universe has mistaken your life for a reality TV show.
Which brings me to something you should probably know about me.
I have a rather entertaining relationship with the Universe.
I picture it sitting in the front row of a movie theater, armed with an XL bucket of popcorn and giant soda watching The Jen Show unfold on the big screen.
And believe me, there have been some doozy episodes!
There I am, getting tangled up in an old story, repeating a familiar pattern, or launching into my latest insane attempt to fix, manage, and control absolutely everything.
And if living on repeat has taught me anything, it’s that these Jen productions rarely end well.
Meanwhile, the Universe is just sitting there.
Crunch. Crunch. Sip.
Until suddenly, I’m like, ‘Crap! I’m left of center again’ and I practice surrendering yet again to course correct.
And the Universe practically jumps out of its seat.
“OH! THERE SHE IS! NOW WE’RE GETTING SOMEWHERE!”
Honestly, I sometimes wonder how many buckets of popcorn I’ve personally been responsible for.
But here’s the thing….I didn’t always have such a playful relationship with life. Or the Universe. Or myself, for that matter.
Life has thrown some devastating plot twists my way. And there have been more than a few moments when I’ve given the Universe the side eye and thought, “Wait a minute. I signed up for THIS?!”
But all joking aside, there are parts of my story that are anything but funny. As a little girl, I was sexually abused and as a young woman, I was sexually assaulted. Different chapters, same silence I had to unlearn.
Like so many women, I became incredibly good at surviving. At shutting down. At disappearing from myself while somehow continuing to show up in the world.
Alcohol addiction eventually derailed me and in my mid-twenties I crash-landed into recovery. And let me tell you, my relationship with life at that point wasn’t exactly what you’d call enthusiastic.
To quote a friend from my early days in recovery…my attitude was:
“My life sucks, God hates me and everyone else is just lucky!”
But I stayed in recovery and sobriety opened the door to a different relationship with myself.
It took me a long time to “thaw out.” About four years into sobriety I was finally feeling hopeful when life pulled the rug out from under me in one fell swoop.
Enter stage left….multiple sclerosis.
Well, there’s a plot twist I didn’t see coming! Seriously, who is writing this script?!
Suddenly — like literally overnight — I was living in a failing body. And the more my body failed, the more I felt myself disappearing.
I lost everything — my career, my marriage, my first business. But most of all, I lost myself. Again.
Yet somehow, I kept finding reasons to laugh. And somewhere in those years, my life motto was born: “I keep laughing until it gets funny.”
And then, something extraordinary happened in my mid-thirties. No fireworks. No angels singing. No dramatic announcement from the Universe.
Just an ordinary day and one question that would forever change my life.
I looked around at my mess (aka: life) and asked:
Is this IT? Seriously. Is THIS it?!
Was this going to be the rest of my life?
And somewhere deep inside me, something answered.
“I don’t know what IT looks like…but I know this ain’t IT.”
I heard a voice within and made a decision that day:
“I’m not going to live sick like this anymore. I’m going to get well.”
Did I have a plan? Nope!
Did I know how? No clue!
I made what I call a ‘power of decision’ that completely changed the trajectory of my life.
And something deep within me shifted.
Then the breadcrumbs began appearing and a late night infomercial saved my life.
Yes. It was Jack LaLanne — the juicer guy. Six easy monthly payments of $19.99.
Who knew divine guidance came with a payment plan?
I bought that juicer, started juicing daily, and started feeling better.
That experience was one of the first steps toward something much bigger than feeling better — I was learning to listen to myself and trust my own intuition.
There was no miraculous cure or overnight transformation.
Simply an unfolding journey of listening, experimenting, learning, and slowly finding my way back to myself and my own aliveness.
I discovered something that changed everything….
Sometimes the greatest transformations begin with a single decision.
Not because the decision magically fixes everything. But because it changes how we begin showing up for ourselves.
Little did I know that I was only beginning to learn what it meant to truly show up for myself.
Years later, another profound moment would bring that lesson home in a way I never could have imagined.
This time, I wasn’t lying in bed wondering whether I’d ever get my life back.
I was standing in my driveway, talking to a friend when suddenly a pattern I’d been living my entire life became crystal clear.
For years, I’d believed my deepest wound was ‘I don’t matter’.
But underneath that was something even more painful.
Choose me. Just somebody, please, choose me.
And suddenly I could see it.
The little girl who was abused had grown into a woman who was still desperately searching for the experience of being chosen.
By the people she loved. In her relationships. In ways she hadn’t even consciously recognized.
And there I was, standing in my driveway, when the most extraordinary AHA realization swept through me and fell out of my mouth….
I NEED TO CHOOSE ME.
I don’t have to spend the rest of my life waiting for or needing someone else to give me the love, attention, and sense of worth I’ve been seeking.
I can begin giving those things to myself.
Now, I’d love to tell you that one magnificent revelation instantly transformed me into a woman who never abandoned herself again.
Wouldn’t THAT have been delightful!?
But no.
The breakthrough happened in a moment. Learning to live it became a practice.
A practice of recognizing when those old feelings returned. Noticing the stories I was telling myself, leaning in with curiosity and pausing instead of reacting.
And most importantly, staying with myself instead of disappearing into the desperate need for someone else to choose me.
And that, my friend, is where something beautiful began to unfold.
Because I started realizing that so much of my journey wasn’t about becoming someone new.
It was about remembering the woman who had been there all along. And finally allowing her to be.
It was about choosing HER in her wholeness. Because the woman beneath all the survival, silence and fear was never broken. Just buried.
And today, that remembrance is at the heart of everything I share with other women.
I don’t sit with women because I’ve figured out every mystery of the Universe.
Please! The Universe is still in the front row with its popcorn!
I sit with women because I know what it’s like to lose yourself.
To silence your voice. To carry feelings you don’t know what to do with.
To wonder whether there’s something more to life than simply getting through it.
And I know what it feels like to begin finding your way home to yourself.
My work is about creating sacred spaces where women can soften, feel, release, laugh, cry, explore, and remember themselves.
No performance. No pretending. No requirement to have it all figured out.
Just a curiosity about what might be possible when you stop leaving yourself behind.
Because here’s something I believe with my entire being-ness….
We are not here to become who we were meant to be. We are here to remember who we have always been.
And if there’s one thing I’d love for you to take from my story, it’s this:
You don’t have to share the details of my experiences to recognize the feelings underneath them.
The loneliness. The longing. The shame. The fear. The silence. The desire to feel safe to be seen, heard, loved, and chosen.
Those are the places where our stories can meet.
And perhaps, somewhere in the unfolding of mine, you’ll recognize a little more of yourself.
And if you do, I hope you’ll feel as though we’re sitting across from each other right now.
That you can show up exactly as you are. With your stories, your laughter, your tears, your messy, magical, gloriously human self.
Because there’s room for all of it here. There’s room for you.
And just between you and me....something tells me the Universe could use a few more buckets of popcorn!
Peace. Presence. Joy.
Infinite love and a whole lot of JenergyVibes….
Jen
You are allowed to be here.
Free Frequency Meditation
A RETURN TO LOVE
An invitation to come home to yourself.Maybe something has stirred as you’ve moved through this space. Something softened. Something opened. Something reminded you of what you already knew.
And now I’d love to invite you to experience that remembering in a different way.
A Return to Love is a gentle frequency meditation created to give you a place to pause, soften the noise, and turn your attention inward.
Not to figure anything out. Not to get anywhere. Simply to be here. With your breath. With your body. With whatever is moving.
Put on your headphones. Find somewhere comfortable. Close your eyes. And for a little while, let yourself stop trying.
Listen. Feel. Receive.
Come home to you.
It’s on its way.
For now…
breathe.
And when you’re finished, come back.
Your journey here isn’t over.
AND THEN THE FOREST APPEARED…
Some truths want to be taught.
Others want to become stories.
Sacred Rebirth is mine.
SACRED REBIRTH
One Woman's Tale of Remembrance Coming Soon
There is a path that appears only when a woman grows weary of leaving herself behind. Most women never notice it. They are too busy surviving, carrying and becoming everything for everyone while quietly abandoning themselves in the process.
But one day, the ache of self-abandonment becomes louder than the fear of choosing herself. And when that day comes, the path appears. If she is brave enough to follow it, she will find herself standing at the edge of an ancient forest. And waiting for her there is a whimsical fairy who remembers exactly who she is.
The Gathering
REMEMBERING YOURSELF IS SACRED.
REMEMBERING TOGETHER IS A MOVEMENT.
Something else is gathering.
A place for women to come together and be all the things—because we are all the things.
Sacred and silly. Deep and playful. Wise and still figuring shit out. Healing and laughing. Tender and powerful. Curious, messy, insightful, irreverent, fully human.
Because empowerment doesn’t have to look polished. And connection doesn’t require us to arrive as some perfectly evolved version of ourselves.
This isn’t about performing wisdom or having all the answers. It’s a brave space for showing up, speaking truth, asking questions, sharing stories, changing our minds, laughing at ourselves, learning from one another, and letting real life have a seat at the table.
Connection. Truth. Wisdom. Curiosity. Laughter. Stories. Real life. All of it belongs.
The working name for this little uprising?
THE EMPOWERED CAFÉ.
Coming Soon The name may change.The heart of it won’t.
Maybe you came here looking for information. Maybe you found an experience you’re curious about. Maybe you want the meditation. Maybe you’re wondering about the book. Maybe you don’t know what you want.
That’s okay. You don’t have to leave here with an answer.
But before you go… notice.
Did anything soften? Did anything stir? Did anything inside you whisper…
Not yes to me. Not yes to an offering. Not even yes to knowing what comes next.
Just…
yes to youBecause perhaps the most sacred remembrance of all is this:
So if something here is calling you… come closer. And if today all you needed was the reminder… take it with you.
You were never a problem to solve. There is nothing here asking you to become someone else.
There is only an invitation…
PEACE.
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PRESENCE.
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JOY.
Your Doorway
YOUR JOURNEY. YOUR CHOICE.
Maybe something here has stirred your curiosity.
Maybe there’s a way of experiencing this work that feels like a yes.
You don’t have to know where it will lead. You don’t have to choose the “right” doorway.
Simply notice what’s calling you.
EMOTIONAL RELEASE
For what you’re ready to stop carrying.
THE SOUND OF ME
For what is ready to be heard.
HER MEDITATION
For what is asking you to turn inward and listen.
SHIVA MURTI
For what may be ready to move beyond words.
OR BEGIN RIGHT HERE.
A RETURN TO LOVE
A free frequency meditation.A gentle place to pause, soften the noise, and come home to yourself.
RECEIVE THE FREE MEDITATION →
PEACE·PRESENCE·JOY
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